My Crsh's Dairy!!!

Everyone in their lives would have had crushes, and me too had my share
of crushes. But, it didn't take much time for each of them to turn to
Crashes.



None of my crushes took off, or probably they crashed even before they took off !! Today, when I look back, I can’t manage but to have a laugh.



My first crush was on Miss L. I was in my tenth then. We happened to Speak only once. It was when I asked lend her chemistry text book because our chemistry was so bad. She refused to and the very next moment I grabbed it. I still cant forget the dumbstruck look on her face. A few days later, she started going around with one of my classmates. They used to go for wonderful evening walks, Miss L, my classmate and her Close GF . Unfortunately (fortunately for me), the affair didn't last too long. On one such romantic walk of theirs, my classmate got proposed by L’s GF.

Somehow I had to pass the exams that year, hoping to catch her years to come (she was among the rank probable).


I was in a boy’s only college for my 11th-12th. I got very friendly with Miss N in my Tuition class. It appeared to me that...yes...she is the girl. One day,Miss N came and sat next to me...close...really close.....my heart beats shot up. She said.. I want to tell you something....but please maintain it as a secret. I knew...this was it...yes....she went on...you know...X(another classmate of mine) proposed me......and I too like him...and I accepted. I am telling you coz you are like my brother.......WHAT THE HECK ? As if the first news wasn't bad enough, the second sounded suicidal. I looked at her with an artificial smil and said....Congrats S..S..Sis !!!


The next crush didn't take much time to happen. It was Miss L who walked in to class. I literally had my jaws hanging seeing her. We became good friends...but I never fancied my chances...given the Miss N experience.

She was my Biology project partner....while she did the project...I concentrated on her biology ! Just as the exams got over, and as I was mustering enough courage to tell her, her dad got transferred. She changed the city.



Next in engineering college, there was this hottie I met, in another Eng: college.

Boy....she was a babe...Miss J. She used to be with me in the tuition Lab .I prayed for some chemistry to happen between us. But I guess, she was much smarter than I was. Miss J realized that I used to mess up all my experiments coz I used to be
Looking at her and not the lab apparatus. I called her out for a lunch ALONE
on my b'day. She turned up with her whole bunch of friends. The girls kept giggling and I looked for a place where I could go and bang my head. I steered clear of her for the rest of my engineering days.


Moving on from here, it was a major success story. This time round, it took some time for things to crash....just a little longer.. a bit more than 2 years. Everything seemed like a fairy tale when the crash Factor took the better of me.

By this time, I was in my job and I decided to use the term "interest" Instead of crush. So, my interest grew in Miss R in office. I thought she was a very pretty lady. Thankfully, the growth of my interest Stopped very soon, the moment I learnt that she has started to stay with her long time Boyfriend, whom she introduced to me in a cinema style J. Only one thought came to my mind....The good ones are always
taken!!!

Ha ha ha.....thankfully.....I have grown out of all these......no more CRUSHES.....so no chances of CRASHES......

I live this way now.....hey...wait.....who is this girl???? !!!!!!!!!!!!

Failure is not when your Girl Friend leaves you, it's only when you don't try for her sister

യവന സുന്ദരി!!

കാലമെന്‍ കരങളെ കരുത്തരാക്കി...എന്‍ നിണത്തെ തിളക്കും
നീരിനേക്കാള്‍ ചൂടുള്ളതും.
ചിന്തകള്‍ പായുന്ന രൂഡാശ്വത്തെകാള്‍ വേഗത്തില്‍...
നിര്‍ഭയം തന്‍ പാ‍തയില്‍ കുതിചുപായുന്നു..
നിനച്ചുഞാന്‍ ഒരിക്കല്‍ ഞാ‍ന്‍ എന്‍ ഉടയോനാകും...
എന്‍ സാമ്രാജ്യം വാര്‍ത്തെടുക്കും.
കുതിച്ചു ഞാനെന്‍ പാതയില്‍..റ്ര്തുക്കള്‍
മാറിമറഞ്ഞിട്ടും ഞാനെന്‍ യാത്ര തുടര്‍ന്നു..
വസന്ദത്തിന്‍ പുലര്‍ച്ചെ ഞാ‍നാ കാഴ്ച്ച്കണ്ടു--

ചുട്ടുപൊള്ളുന്നൊരു സൂര്യകിരണങളാക്കെയും-
വെണ്ണക്കല്‍ വിഗ്രഹത്തിനു ചുറ്റും കത്തിച്ചു വച്ചൊരാ
നെയ്യ്‌വിളക്കുകള്‍ പോല്‍ ആ‍ പ്രഭയ്ക്കരികില്‍!!
പിടയ്ക്കും പ്പേടമാനിന്റെ..മിഴികള്‍ പ്പോലവള്‍തന്‍ നീല്ല
മിഴികള്‍ തെറ്റവേ..
എന്നെത്തഴുകിത്ത്ലലോടിയ മാരുതി പുത്ത്നുണവിന്റെ കുളിരെന്‍
ശ്രദ്ധയാകണ്ണുക്കളുടക്കി...
വ്വെള്ളിയെന്‍ ചിന്ത ഒരിക്കല്‍...സുന്ദരമായൊരീ ..കാഴ്ച്ച്യെന്
ഉള്ള്ത്തെ ഉള്ളത്തെ..ഉഴുതിളക്കി...!!!

Startups!!!

The best article i read on starting a startup!!
Discusses almost every possible questions that arises from the mind whether the decision for a new venture is right /not
http://www.paulgraham.com/notnot.html

ये जिन्दगी

This April 14 th (അതായതു വിഷു ദിനം ) i will successfully complete my 2 years in professional life as a software engineer..!! The most dreamt days when i started my B-tech as a CS engineering student when Y2K stroked with all its power on the then System Gurus who weren't planned for such a big bug...and also the Laden's army struck with its full power on the heart of Americas WTC.Result Millions of Indians who are relying on the 20 % of its population who are well educated and having a lucrative job ..which pays them enough to give an IT(income Tax) returnso that the commodity costs are kept on control .Forget the other 20% who are educated and still doesn't have a job and would turn to the mostly demanded one in India where you don't have to file any IT returns and can earn much without any investment -called as a politician - education is an over qualification for this job ,'अरे यार इंग्लिश और हिंदी अगर खुद पद या बोल ना सके तो कोई cheating करेगा ' -see the RM (who was cheated by somebody ,other wise in the 50 years of indian democracy no minister was made to declare that the Indian railway is in profit.. rather than वह अपनी जेब में ) ,PM and FM are educated koyi cheating na kar payegaa..ha haa.
After the Fall of WTC the indian S/W engineers were becoming the mostly endangered species and the educational acharyas were thinking about redirecting students to other paradigms like science rather than Engineering..believe me there were serious thoughts on this.
Days went by like a second ...times changed indian IT tycoons got their contracts back agianthey were after the fresh brains who are capable of taking any kind of challenges..Time 2004-05 "होव many offers you have in hand?" .Circumstancial pressure करना पडेगा भयी after a long resistance i also joined as a system administrator(കാരണം ഒരു developer ആയാല്‍ ഉണ്ടാകാവുന്ന ഭവിഷ്യത്തുകള്‍ എനിക്കറിയാമായിരുന്നു ഉറക്കം കളയാന്‍ താത്പര്യമില്ലാരുന്നു).
joined the company which offered highest in salary ...started working ...haaha the honey moon days were so sweet in dreams as the forth coming days of work in the unix world ..that put me in the highest of the spirits.All of a sudden came the requirement to move from bangalore to MUMBAI आमची मुम्बई ॥ मुम्बई जाके तू क्या करेगा ? अरे मुम्बई जाके तू जो करेगा अब तक कोइबी नही किया है ! पहली डेपुटेशन यानी onsite पहुंचते ही पता चला कि काम है थोड़ी ! जो कुछ है वह करने केलिये है आदमी । तीन चार महीने के बाद एक दिन बेड साब आये मुम्बई विसित केलिये " You people are from kerala ? what are u doin हियर? There's a major activity goin on in kerala .." हो गयी अपनी काम packup!!दो दिन में बैंगलोर -घर दे किराये कीलिये मैंने एक हफ्ता पूछा because every thing had to be settled including the house deposit as the plans were like we will be away for some 6 months minimum and the owner was a great fraud ..tried the level best to get the deposit back ...नही मिला एक अग्रीमेंट बंवाके बैंगलोर पहुंचा । काम चालू किया क्या काम है ? Work on the server side ..but the real work was with excel and bank data that too in the night after the banks are closed.In the day time you will get the calls from team who are working in some remote village in kerala . Most of the days you will have to start work in 2 pm and will extend to mostly 5or 6 am next morning...5 months continued like that.Those days i learned that its not only me 50 % of the peoples life in a product company are like this most of them haven't married because of fear .ഉറങാന്‍ പറ്റാത്തവനെന്തു കുട്ടുംബം..? കുടുംബം ഉറക്കം കെട്ടുത്തുന്ന മ്റ്റൊരു ഏട്ടാകൂട്ടം ആണേ..!!എന്നു തീരും ഈ പ്രോജക്ട്ട് ..?
As soon as this prjct finished i had to join to the team which dealt with the information security and the organizational process definition.Here again the challenge was to work with microsoft word and the excels ( we call this the microsoft certified documentor or MR DOCSI) .After spending 3 months in the team i jumped from that team with a great thanks to my manager that he made me expert in documentation which of course is needed not now in some way ahead.
The life with 8 hrs of sleep and regualrity is dreamt by all...then it happened again the requirement came up for an onsite this time across the seas.!!!! wow!! u are required to do something technical .Good i am ready ..This time as i put the true life experiences across in black and white the professional life of a IT S/W engineer is much uncertain than compared to any other profession.. ie ,you have to be soft and flexible by all means!!

ताज महल यानी तेजो महालय

Hidden, Shocking and Amazing Truth on Taj Mahal To read about Prof. P.N. Oa, visit - http://home.freeuk.com/tajmahal/19Author.htm Article on Taj Mahal - Visit - http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/alabaster/A5220 BBC says about Taj Mahal---Hidden Truth - Never say it is a Tomb



Interior of one of the 22 secret rooms







The OM in the flowers on the wall















Staircase that leads to the lower levels and Vedic design on ceiling of a locked room






NOW READ THIS.......

No one has ever challenged it except Prof. P. N. Oak, who believes the whole world has been duped.
In his book Taj Mahal: The True Story, Oak says the
Taj Mahal is not Queen Mumtaz's tomb but an ancient Hindu temple palace of
Lord Shiva (then known as Tejo Mahalaya ) . In the course of his research Oak discovered that the Shiva temple palace was usurped by Shah Jahan from
then Maharaja of Jaipur, Jai Singh. In his own court chronicle, Badshahnama, Shah Jahan admits that an exceptionally beautiful grand mansion in Agra
was taken from Jai Singh for Mumtaz's burial . The ex-Maharaja of Jaipur still retains in his secret collection two orders from Shah Jahan for surrendering the Taj building. Using captured temples and mansions, as a
burial place for dead courtiers and royalty was a common practice among Muslim rulers.

For example, Humayun,Akbar, Etmud-ud-Daula and Safdarjung are all buried in such mansions. Oak's inquiries began with the name of Taj Mahal. He says
the term " Mahal " has never been used for a building in any Muslim countries from Afghanisthan to Algeria . "The unusual explanation that the term Taj Mahal derives from Mumtaz Mahal was illogical in atleast two respects.

Firstly, her name was never Mumtaz Mahal but Mumtaz-ul-Zamani," he writes. Secondly, one cannot omit the first three letters 'Mum' from a woman's name to derive the remainder as the name for the building."Taj Mahal, he
claims, is a corrupt version of Tejo Mahalaya, or Lord Shiva's Palace . Oak also says the love story of Mumtaz and Shah Jahan is a fairy tale created by court sycophants, blundering historians and sloppy archaeologists Not a single royal chronicle of Shah Jahan's time corroborates the love story.

Furthermore, Oak cites several documents suggesting the Taj Mahal predates Shah Jahan's era, and was a temple dedicated to Shiva, worshipped by Rajputs of Agra city. For example, Prof. Marvin Miller of New York took a
few samples from the riverside doorway of the Taj. Carbon dating tests revealed that the door was 300 years older than Shah Jahan. European traveler Johan
Albert Mandelslo, who visited Agra in 1638 (only seven years after Mumtaz's death), describes the life of the city in his memoirs. But he makes no reference to the Taj Mahal being built. The writings of Peter Mundy, an
English visitor to Agra within a year of Mumtaz's death, also suggest the Taj was a noteworthy building well before Shah Jahan's time.

Prof. Oak points out a number of design and architectural inconsistencies that support the belief of the Taj Mahal being a typical Hindu temple rather than a mausoleum. Many rooms in the Taj ! Mahal have remained sealed since Shah Jahan's time and are still inaccessible to the public . Oak asserts they contain a headless statue of Lord Shiva and other objects commonly used for worship rituals in Hindu temples Fearing political backlash, Indira Gandhi's government tried to have Prof. Oak's book withdrawn from the bookstores, and threatened the Indian publisher of the
first edition dire consequences . There is only one way to discredit or validate Oak's research.

The current government should open the sealed rooms of the Taj Mahal under U.N. supervision, and let international experts investigate.

'Troop cut depends on ground situation'

A.K. Antony
Car Nicobar: Stating it was his dream that soldiers should return to the barracks in Jammu and Kashmir, Defence Minister A.K Antony said here Sunday that this depended on India's neighbours ceasing support to terror groups in the country. "It is my dream that the soldiers can go back to the barracks (in Kashmir). It is the dream of the government, but it depends on the situation on the ground," Antony told reporters here. "Terrorists are getting support from across the border. That is a fact (and unless this ceased, there could be no withdrawal of troops)," Antony, who was here to inspect the post-tsunami rehabilitation measures being undertaken in this southern island of the Andaman and Nicobar chain, added. Pressed on the issue, he said: "At the appropriate time, we will review the situation. Whether (this will happen) tomorrow I can't say. There have been several rounds of discussions. Everything depends on the emerging security scenario." Pointing out that the government had sent the army to combat terrorism when it erupted in Kashmir in 1989, Antony said: "The threat is still there. We don't want to deploy the armed forces (in Kashmir), but what do we do? We have to protect ourselves against terrorism." "Their (the security forces') working conditions are extremely difficult. We don't want this situation to continue," he added. Pressed on a timetable for the troops withdrawal, Antony said this depended on the recommendations of the security forces. "The armed forces and other security forces must tell us (when the time is ripe for withdrawing troops)," he maintained. Asked whether he expected a solution to the Kashmir crisis as long as a military government ruled in Pakistan, Antony replied: "Mere statements are not necessary. Action is needed." The issue of troop withdrawal from Jammu and Kashmir has been raised by the People's Democratic Party, the state's major ruling coalition partner, which has threatened to withdraw from the alliance if its demand was not acceded to. It is also demanding withdrawal of the Armed Forces Special Powers Act from the state. Prime Minister Manmohan Singh invited PDP patron Mufti Mohammad Sayeed to Delhi for talks to defuse the crisis. The two held two rounds of talks this week.
--courtsey manoramaonline...dated March 26, 2007 12:27 AM IST----------

എന്റെ ഹറ്ദയം

ഇരുളിന്‍ മഹാ നിദ്രയില്‍‍ നിന്നുണറ്ത്തി നീ
നിറമുള്ള ജീവിത പീലി തന്നൂ...
ഏന്‍ ചിറകിന്‍ ആകാശവും നീ തന്നു
നിന്‍ ആത്മ ശിഖരത്തിലൊരു കൂടു തന്നു
ആത്മ ശിഖരത്തിലൊരു കൂടു തന്നു

ഒരു കുഞ്ഞു പൂവിലും കുളിറ്‍ കാറ്റിലും
നിന്നെ നീയായ്‌ മണക്കുന്നതെങ്ങു വെറെ
ജീവനുരുകുംബോളൊരു തുള്ളി ഉറയാതെ നീ തന്നെ നിറയുന്ന പുഴയെങ്ങു വേറെ
കനവിന്റെ ഇതളായി നിന്നെപ്പരതി നീ വിരിയിച്ചൊരാകാശമെങ്ങു വേറെ..?

ഒരു കുഞ്ഞു രാപ്പാടി കരയുബോഴും
നേരത്തോരരുവി തന്‍ താരാട്ടു തളരുബോഴും
കനിവിലൊരു കല്ലു കനി മധുരമാകുബോഴും കാലമിടരുബോഴും
നിന്റെ ഹ്രുദയത്തില്‍ ഞനെന്റെ ഹ്ര്ദയം കൊരുത്തിരിക്കുന്നു
നിന്നിലഭയം തിരഞ്ഞു പൊകുന്നു

അടരുവാന്‍‍ വയ്യ....!!
അടരുവാന്‍ വയ്യ നിന്‍ ഹ്രുദയത്തില്‍ നിന്നെനിക്കേതു സ്വറ്‍ഗം വിളിച്ചാലും
ഊരുകി നിന്നാത്മാവിന്‍ ആഴങ്ങലില്‍ വീണു പൊലിയുബ്ബോഴെന്റെ സ്വര്‍ഗം
നിന്നിലടിയുന്നതേ ... നിത്യ സത്യം!!!